Tuesday, September 1, 2015


It has been very interesting to see the various reactions I have gotten from people when I tell them that I am engaged. Many people have been somewhat cautious, telling me that I should be cautious and that this is not the way they would pick for me to go. A few people have been very happy for me.

I really understand why people are telling me to be cautious and possibly wondering if I've lost my marbles after what happened last spring. I get it, I really do, but I also know how he and I have spent many hours talking about what happened, talking about what could be, and just talking. I know he has issues, so do I (though mine are perhaps not as obvious and may not seem as serious), but he has also come to a realization that life can be better and that he wants to make it better. Yes, there are going to be lots of hurdles, but I have to at least give it a shot. I can't spend the rest of my life wondering.

Sometimes a person just needs someone to believe in them. If that's the case, I must find out.

In the meantime, I am thoroughly enjoying the feeling of being newly engaged!

We talked on Sunday for about three hours. After two, the conversation turned serious. He asked me if I was coming in December, and said that if I was, he was going to take me by the hand and never let go. I tell you, it was kind of surreal when he started talking about weddings. I mean, isn't it usually the girl who starts talking about weddings?

So, after the warm fuzzies of hearing him say that he had been thinking about this for a long time, that he should have said something so long ago but that he was a fool, I said that we still had a few problems. A little nervous, I mentioned that if I came there, there would not be enough income for me to pay all my bills. He agreed and then I asked if he would consider coming here. He expressed his fears and then agreed that he would come.

I have been walking around, smiling to myself, giggling, and feeling absolutely twitter-pated! No matter how this all turns out, it feels pretty wonderful to know that someone wants to spend their life with you.

I feel like Aurora, waltzing through the forest.

Ok, so maybe this is not the way I've dreamed of things happening, maybe this is no Cinderella story, but if I end up with the man I have loved for so long, and if we can be happy together...what more could I ask for? This is my story. Cinderella can keep hers.

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