Saturday, December 19, 2015

Let The Adventure Begin

Well, here I am.

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go... Whoa, sorry. Just had an Armageddon moment.

Packing was done a little bit ago, and I just finished writing the last of my postcards to be sent. (Check out https://www.postcrossing.com) Now I am taking a minute to sit and relax. 

This moment has been coming for what seems like an eternity. As I predicted earlier in the semester when I thought I would never make it through, I have woken up and thought "whoa, shit! How is it here already???" But I am ready! I think... How ready is one ever for anything, really?

Later today, my much fatter than I had hoped self is hopping on an airplane and heading to Belarus. Not just that, but I will be spending 20 days with my best friend and soulmate. AND I am marrying my best friend and soulmate!!!

Surreal!

I truly never thought I would actually find someone, because I thought I could never be with the one I really wanted, but here we are, 17 years later and we are getting married. I feel so lucky. I found a man who is so kind and caring, so sweet,  and with whom I love to just talk for hours. I could not imagine life with anyone else.

We have had some rough patches, but I think we can build a support system that will enable us both to flourish.

Here's hoping!

Alex, I can't wait to start our life together. I can't wait to be immersed in your love. I can't wait to feel your warmth next to me. I can't wait to laugh and talk and be silly together.

I love you.


Sunday, December 13, 2015

One Week!!

Ohmigod! Ohmigod! Ohmigod! Ohmigod!

One week from today I will arrive in Belarus! One week from right now I will most likely be lying cuddled up with the love of my life!

Most of the time I am just super excited, but every once in a while I think "is this really happening?" I mean, I always hoped that I would find someone, but I never really thought it would be more than a dream.

Well, that's not exactly true. I always felt in my heart that Alex was the one for me, but it just seemed like it was impossible for us to be together. And I also wasn't 100% certain that he felt the same way. I never stopped wondering, as I went about my daily life, what it would be like to have him in the car with me, going grocery shopping for me, sitting at home on the couch with me. Now I will actually get to experience all these things.

I think that I have everything rounded up that I need. I have one apostille with statement of single status, one passport with visa, and one birth certificate, just in case. I also have a dress, necklace, bracelet, earrings, hairpiece...etc.

Other than packing and a few last minute errands this week, all I have left to do is wait. That and get a massage, meet with friends for coffee, and get a mani/pedi. :)





Now I need to figure out my hair...

Cut Me A Little Slack

That's right, I'm talking to you, self. You need to cut yourself a little slack.

Two weeks ago I came to the decision that I just couldn't keep going the way things were. I had four or five papers/essays coming up in the next 3 weeks, my boss was quitting, and I am trying to prepare for a trip overseas to get married. Something had to give.

I didn't want to, but I decided that the best decision would be to ask my instructors for an incomplete  so I could have extra time to finish my work, all the while feeling that I had failed because I should be able to handle everything--what is wrong with me.

Really? If I was talking to a friend I would be telling them that they are only human and they need to take care of themselves, too. Why don't I cut myself the slack I cut others?

This last week was really stressful at work, and I think a semester's worth of yuck was tipped over by this week and I cried at my desk on Friday.

So, I really need a break and when I come back, I am going to do my darnedest, since I can't do anything about some stuff, to just make the best of things.

In the meantime, I am going to enjoy my time overseas, enjoy my new adventure in life, and work on finishing up this semester's work.

Breathe...








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