Wednesday, January 24, 2018

Time To Say Goodbye

Ya’ll know that my whole relationship has been obstacle after obstacle, but after being engaged for two and half years and getting nowhere, I decided what I really knew a long time ago...it’s over.

He is a good, kind, man, but it is obvious to me that he is not going to change, no matter how much he loves me. And, I truly believe that he is subconsciously sabotaging things because deep down, he doesn’t believe I’ll stay with him.

I feel a shit ton of different emotions. I feel sad. I feel mad. I feel like a fucking idiot. Part of me is glad that we had what we had, and part is sad that I wasted so many years. And so much money.

I feel a sense of freedom. I mean, I loved the guy with all my heart, but my heart spent a lot of time aching. And like I said, I think I knew it was over a long time ago but just couldn’t face it.

I will always love you, you were my first love. But I am stronger now, and I know that I deserve better than to be heartbroken all the time.  Wish you all the best. Thank you for teaching me what love should, and shouldn’t, be.








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