Tuesday, January 2, 2018

New Year, Not New Me

The last couple new years I've been able to reach down in and get all introspective and dig up some positivity, but not this year. Things have been really rough and I have tried really hard not to let the negative out to affect other people. Apparently, I have done a good job because when I posted on Facebook that last year was full of a lot of yucky stuff, people were very surprised.

This year has held lots of job (searching) woes. Two times I was passed over for full-time employment at the place I loved working, there have been lots of changes there that are leaving me mentally and physically exhausted, I haven't even been able to find another part time job, and so on...

As far as love, I just don't know. I just don't understand what's happening, and if there is actually any possibility that this can lead anywhere.

My weight loss was going super duper until this fall when work and love started getting icky and I started dealing with depression. Life became about living one day at a time, and I just didn't have the mental energy to do as well at keto.

So, this year, my focus is to get back on track eating wise, to try and be sure that I am taking care of me, to purpose to write, and to try and branch out. Mom and I are starting a home bakery, so you never know...maybe that will go somewhere.

Anyway, I'm just going to try and take care of me and figure out what I really want, or more accurately, how to get what I really want.

So, 2017, you can just go suck it. 2018, try to be kinda gentle.

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