The first two days back at work I did ok, but still checked my email a lot. Today, however, was liberating! At least at first. I went to work and all day long I had people coming in asking me to do stuff for them. It was great! It was mostly mindless work, alphabetizing, dubbing VHS onto DVD, and it kept me occupied without having to do any of my normal duties (of which there are not a ton to do at the mo). My mind did not wander to my emails, and I felt a great sense of accomplishment, and was happy to be so helpful to my co-workers.
I stayed positive today, for the most part. I may have had a few moments...but this evening, I am wavering. I came home and got on my social network sites while I waited for dinner and suddenly became rather down. I've had numerous friends who have been "singles" as well as me, and now I see that they are mostly engaged or in relationships. I know I should not compare my life to theirs, but dang! (And I should be more happy for them.) Most of them are a fair bit younger than me, and, well, what more do I have to say...it's just not fair. So, this proves to me that while I do not feel ready for the semester to start and am frankly very nervous to start teaching Elementary Russian, I really need to get back into the busyness of community college life in order to keep myself preoccupied and out of my email inbox, longing for something that may never come.
Boss is back tomorrow, so I shall have to really dig in to my regularly scheduled duties. Work, work, work...no, don't click that inbox!