Seeing Clearly

Ha!

I'm feeling like pretty tough stuff right now! I decided after a lot of research, trials and errors, that I wanted to try to eat as cleanly as possible. I am addicted to carbs, and for my PCOS, I think it will be good to control not only the carbs, but the chemicals and hormones and such that I put into my body. So, since Monday I have been eating fruits, veggies (except starchy ones like corn and potatoes), good fats, and protein. It has gone surprisingly well! I have gotten a little tired of green beans, but I am down 7.5 pounds over the last two weeks.

Now I am going to add back in complex carbs and try to keep simple carbs and highly processed foods to minimum. I think I am going to feel so good once I don't have all that sugar coursing through my veins. I already feel pretty great! This week was easier than I thought--I was surprised by the fact that by eating proteins and good fats I wasn't hungry, even though I ended up eating way less calories. (One or two days I actually ate half of my WW points!)

I am feeling confident! I have never felt so confident!!!

I feel like I am on the right path health wise, but I also feel like I am on the right track in other areas of my life. I now know that I must go to Belarus. I must do whatever it takes to be together with Alex. As I've been re-reading my journal I remembered all the things I pushed out of my brain (purely self-preservation) about how he made me laugh, smile, and feel like me. 16 years ago I just thought that it wasn't meant to be and that there was nothing I could do. I now know better. I don't know how, when, where, etc., but I know that I have to figure it out somehow.

I've never seen so clearly!

Ha!

Hang in there love! I'll move oceans if I have to!