I realized earlier today, well yesterday now, that the last time I saw Alex was one year ago today. Er, yesterday. Seriously, who wants to send me on a little vacay?
What an awful day it was coming home. I almost missed a couple flights, my plantar fasciitis was so bad I could hardly walk, and mom almost missed her flight coming home from Denver. All that on top of my heart being ripped out having to leave the love of my life.
You may have noticed that I've been a bit nostalgic as of late. The beginning of the year has proven to be challenging. Christmas and New Years both make me a bit sad, then January 7 is the anniversary of my leaving Belarus the first time, and January 8 marked the last time I saw Alex.
More than that though, I been thinking about where I was a year ago. A year ago I had no clue what 2016 would hold. I was certain that I would get Alex here, I was going to finish my degree and find my dream job. Instead, I got laid off and as a result I couldn't start the visa application for Alex because how can you prove you can support another person when you are on unemployment?
Well, 2016 was one of the hardest, crappiest years of my life, but I find myself in a much better place now. I'm in a city I love, I'm in a job I love, and am hopefully in a position to start the visa process.
I wouldn't want to relive 2016, but you know how it is--gold is refined only by fire and diamonds are only formed by tremendous pressure. It's the bad stuff that shapes us, and right now, I feel really good about where I am. (Except that I wish Alex was here.)
I wonder where 2017 will take me?
What an awful day it was coming home. I almost missed a couple flights, my plantar fasciitis was so bad I could hardly walk, and mom almost missed her flight coming home from Denver. All that on top of my heart being ripped out having to leave the love of my life.
You may have noticed that I've been a bit nostalgic as of late. The beginning of the year has proven to be challenging. Christmas and New Years both make me a bit sad, then January 7 is the anniversary of my leaving Belarus the first time, and January 8 marked the last time I saw Alex.
More than that though, I been thinking about where I was a year ago. A year ago I had no clue what 2016 would hold. I was certain that I would get Alex here, I was going to finish my degree and find my dream job. Instead, I got laid off and as a result I couldn't start the visa application for Alex because how can you prove you can support another person when you are on unemployment?
Well, 2016 was one of the hardest, crappiest years of my life, but I find myself in a much better place now. I'm in a city I love, I'm in a job I love, and am hopefully in a position to start the visa process.
I wouldn't want to relive 2016, but you know how it is--gold is refined only by fire and diamonds are only formed by tremendous pressure. It's the bad stuff that shapes us, and right now, I feel really good about where I am. (Except that I wish Alex was here.)
I wonder where 2017 will take me?
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