Monday, March 27, 2017

Always the Bridesmaid

Okay, so I have never actually been a bridesmaid, in fact I've only ever been part of one wedding (flower girl at my uncle's first wedding).

As I have posted--many times--recently, things have been rough. After almost three weeks I called and talked to Alex for about 5 minutes just to see if he was alive. It's been over a week since I called and he old me he'd been really sick. I've been mad and hurt, and I miss him like crazy. I've wished that I had him to talk to about what has been going on.

The person who got the job I wanted started this week and I have been struggling. We have very similar backgrounds and experience and I am just really disappointed. And of course, we have worked together many hours this week. Which is really okay. Just...disappointing.

At work one day, I found myself thinking about that fact that four times now I have had to help train the person who got the job--and it occurred to me that it was like always being a bridesmaid. I am always the assistant, never anything more.

Why is it that some people never seem to get ahead?

And thinking about my relationship at the moment, I was like I'm never going to be a bride either.

On the bright side, I have good people around me! I love the people I work with, and I am starting to really settle in and establish some ownership. I've even struck up a friendship. So while I've had a few bad moments, all in all things are good.

And, after feeling down and wondering how long it would take until Alex reached out, he finally called today. I was at work so I couldn't answer, but at least he made an effort.

So, here's hoping that in the near future I will finally be a bride and move up in the work world.

As tough as it is somedays, I will keep moving forward

And, I have one really big positive to look forward to... meeting my best friend's new bundle of joy, who is making her entrance soon!




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